You have got to be the mud man, something about ya just tells me so. Bathed in shit for every performance and coated in mud from head to toe. A song and dance that everyone claps for, and nobody even remembers the show. I'd never think to get to close to the ledge; a massive blow to the ego. Well oh well It was never supposed to be like this (yeah) I'll never rise above because I always miss. I feel like my place is fading away here And sometimes I wish I could disappear. In the morning I think I'll go for a walk, I've just got to enjoy the day. Whenever it feels like everything is together, everything is slipping away. Sit on the edge waiting for help, it got bored perhaps it decided to halt. The harder you try the louder the sound when you're slammed against the asphalt. Well oh well It was never supposed to be like this (yeah) I'll never rise above because I always miss. I feel like my place is fading away here And sometimes I wish I could disappear. You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man You have got to be the mud man

I feel I've been here 'bout a thousand times before The space is fading but it feels so familiar. Remember much of nothing I can't do much more I think anyway crouched behind this pillar. So fortunate I've got the bank of memories Unfortunately it's only selective all times. Now who's the villain and who's the bad guy? How do I realize the dependency signs? I always thought I was just bat shit crazy But now I see that everything is all black. I will forget all and what sustains me Just for some piece of my worthless mind back. That person featured in the playback (wasn't me) I must've stumbled on a bump on the ground They scrambled down and got beneath the big crack (wasn't me) I heard the phone ring but I'm just not around. I always thought I was just being lazy But who decided they could just be on track? I will forget all of my memories Just for one piece of my worthless mind back. Just a piece of it back.

Sailing away on the ghost of the phantom ship Watch your step so you don't trip Getting closer day by day 2 x 2 and I watch it decay So stand up and take it like a man I lie down and take it how I can Though the water is cold (cold) Hell I've made up my mind And if you ruin the shot well I guess you'll have to die Through the mud I will trek God! With no route defined It's embarrassing how much you've falsely opined About a million others joined in the fight It's not a question of what's wrong and what's right It's a wonder how those people even sleep through the night Yes, I lie awake like a blinking light So stand up and take it like a man I lie down and take it how I can Though the water is cold (cold) Hell I've made up my mind And if you ruin the shot well I guess you'll have to die Through the mud I will trek God! With no route defined It's embarrassing how much you've falsely opined

Confide within your limits lately And don't let the current bring you down Cuz it's a long way down The waters are rising higher The waters are rising higher The waters are rising higher So get out while you still can Why when I was young would I always worry? And now here comes the tide And I can see I'm running out of time Wrap it up with a bow It's to make yourself grow We can't live please kill us all We think we're so big but we're so small The waters are rising higher The waters are rising higher The waters are rising higher So get out while you still can

You sink your teeth in deep, still shallow and cheap Can't hurt what's out of reach, said "I want a girl who likes my leech." Sucking all the life out of everyone who is around Hoping for a drought, dry out your little swimming ground. The world would be a better place without you Couldn't name a single person who could want you around You fucking parasite with a fragile bite No alternative you're just a blank space And you're so conservative yet so out of place No gaps in your ignorance but maybe your intellegence. (ooooh yeah) Choke on my blood, you can suck it all out I'm waiting in the mud, for a mere second of doubt Trapped on the shelf, or in an underwater cage As I get filled with joy myself when you get filled with rage. I'm the parasite that's undermined you Couldn't name a single person who could want you around You fucking parasite with a fragile bite No alternative you're just a blank space And you're so conservative yet so out of place No gaps in your ignorance but maybe your intellegence. (ooooh yeah)

The world is so full of shit, move out of the way or you might get hit. The world is so dangerous, everybody has something and I can't find my purpose. I can't believe this anymore, it seems everyday there's a new store. Warehouses take up all the land, I confide so much because the world is so bland. I try and run away but I can't keep this fucking pace it feels like the whole world is running out of space. I try and shrink behind all the places I go and all the mountains I climb it feels like the whole world is running out of time. Out of time Time, time, time, time. I try and live and try and adapt but my anxiety wire is so tightly wrapped They say everything is changing now, but I swear to god it's the same somehow I try and run away but I can't keep this fucking pace it feels like the whole world is running out of space. I try and shrink behind all the places I go and all the mountains I climb it feels like the whole world is running out of time.

Welcome to my mind, this facade where fabricated joy is excessively broad. I'm trapped outside in the cold think positively, that's what I've been told. It feels like there's something I have to hide keep me away from myself on the inside. Social cues I always lose I never could read, they never were much use. Things get worse, not what they want you to know Even further down than I could ever go. Things get worse, so sick of believing it still: It will get better if you believe it will. Nearly at the end of my rope at the bottom of the hill, there's another slope. My brain is against myself everyday this internal battle has come to stay. The only thing I know for sure is things get worse, I-I can concur. I must be living with some kind of curse Cuz when things are so bad, well things get worse. Things get worse, not what they want you to know Even further down than I could ever go. Things get worse, so sick of believing it still: It will get better if you believe it will. Things get so much worse. Things get worse, not what they want you to know Even further down than I could ever go. Things get worse, so sick of believing it still: It will get better if you believe it will.

I try and be what they want me to be (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) I try and see what they want me to see (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) I try to know what they want me to know (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) And I try to believe what they want me to believe (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) Why does it have to be like this And this experience all seems so priceless We all make mistakes, we all make a ton We aren't the worst things that we have done. I try and free what they want me to free (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) I try and breathe how they want me to breathe (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) I try to hear what they want me to hear (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) And I try to be how they want me to be (driveways shift, shift) (driveways shift, shift) Why does it have to be like this And this experience all seems so priceless We all make mistakes, we all make a ton We aren't the worst things that we have done. Why does it have to be like this And this experience all seems so priceless We all make mistakes, we all make a ton We aren't the worst things that we have done.

I've never had more control I'll die on this hill all alone What can you do when nothing can be done? Built into your brain it wired itself (It's here) A difference. Anytime give you a weigh No difference this time, this time move away. And it's the path I can't go on And it's me, I cannot stop And it's my brain I've lost control As if the world is castle rock I live in a feedback loop It's all that I am My own delusions tell me what I love to hear All I can see is success, I'm so near (It's gone) No difference everytime I escape Any difference it's all, it's all it would take And it's the path I can't go on And it's me, I cannot stop And it's my brain I've lost control As if the world is castle rock No difference, no difference at all It's gone, no difference, no difference And it's the path I can't go on And it's me, I cannot stop And it's my brain I've lost control As if the world is castle rock

Earth is turning way too fast, it's all relative: the past. Present, things change in a blink. Nobody stops to think. I resent my responsibility, I stay up so late for it's futility. Procrastination, no motivation yeah that's the way it goes. Nothing we do will ever leave an impact And every single day is exactly the same If the pain inside is only in abstract Change is what we need to end this game "Repetition makes us stronger." I don't want to do this any longer. I can't keep turning away, waiting for another day So put me on more medication, nothing except for discoloration Making a sharp knife dull, such a vicious cycle Nothing we do will ever leave an impact And every single day is exactly the same If the pain inside is only in abstract Change is what we need to end this game Wake up late, procrastinate, try to learn, no return, go to work, can't sustain, go to bed, repeat again Wake up late, procrastinate, try to learn, no return, go to work, can't sustain, go to bed, repeat again Wake up late, procrastinate, try to learn, no return, go to work, can't sustain, go to bed, repeat again Wake up late, procrastinate, try to learn, no return, go to work, can't sustain, go to bed, repeat again Nothing we do will ever leave an impact And every single day is exactly the same If the pain inside is only in abstract Change is what we need to end this game

Well you're at the top now, find your way down to the ground Tower overtop is breaking and my hands are bound Topple over I'm not strong enough to do what must be done Topple over Blow it off, I just choose to run There's a universe in her eyes To say I didn't love; would be a lie Foundation cracks, give it all back tower is so high (break apart)

Standing in the middle of the opposing side Sun beating down on a desert so wide Evaporates away, like water flowing down a drain Looking for a mountain just to see across this plain (this plain) Subtle as the gaping dark abyss, I really need you to feel this Lost the trail and I won't get a ping, the sun's coming down And I can't do anything

If someone swam down, below all else They would find another scared incel And that's rich coming from me Have you lost everyone finally? Oh you still haven't found the key? Well, there's a space that's in your mind So deep under and hard to find You will realize this was just a phase When you're rescued from your underwater cage When you're no longer deaf and your eyes turn on You just crawl back in, everyone else is gone From your circus tent, and your opinions too When we moved on, you held on like glue And then you try to sew it all back together For any good intensions? It's you, so never You'll just rot here you impatient fuck It's all slipped away, gone with your luck Now we all know who you really are I'm covered in mud, and you're covered in tar And no one stayed by your side Act like you don't care cuz you're afraid inside It's another book with a torn out page Everyone's forgotten about the underwater cage

I don't want to think about anyone else but you I'll fall to where the ice is flowing Or follow wherever you are going I'm basically drowning in all I've misconstrued. With a watch, to tell the time Just made it into the Montana line With an empty head, god I wish that was the case I’m so spaced out and out of place. But I can't deny that you take up all of my mind Now I'm alone but I'm searching for what's left inside I will let you know how much I think of you I can't bring myself to do it, don't look through it It's better that you don't know which way is which Snow-studded mountains to scratch the itch The temperature feels so fine Passed the marker for mile nine And I watch the stars 'till the break of dawn I saw two meteors but only one thing to wish on. But I can't deny it, I think of you all of the time It's clear to me now, there's no place left to hide I can't rest, my head is rolling like dice Is a wish cancelled out if it is wished for twice? I'd give you a kidney if you needed one Hell I'd even donate my left lung I'd give my mind to help you understand Please call me and tell me everything, all that you can Am I really any better? Am I really any better? Am I really any better? Am I really any better? Driving away. It'll take two days, maybe two with minimum delay. I glance at my watch, say "That's rather strange." I forgot to factor in the time zone change. And I can't sleep, cuz you rock my brain like the tide And I found something I never thought I'd find.

Lost my mind again I think I'm sinking Deeper into the dark More than thinking Places stumbled by I'd give it all, enough to die Obliged within the walls Relive the pressure.

[Balsam] No, you're just jealous of yourself You thought of someone else The reason slips away you had words left to say But no one cared To hear them anyway Grow up. I left you behind because I didn't want your narcissism on my mind Yes you only think about you You play the victim every time and that is true And so is this: You try to be shocking like an anemone said "I broke us apart like a golfer and tee." And that shows that you don't know a single fucking thing about me. I could say something nice, or serene, so good luck with your shitty fucking dreams. [Alpines] Ooooh there it comes again the freezing cold remain in your den I could take a bite out of your ego like an apple Our relationship worked like placebo Now that it's all said and done, you're just the same as everyone. I bet ya think that you're special or important Everything you do is pointless and inadvertent You're not cognizant of anything you do. You're incompetent. Like when I paid for us to see that show How could I forget? You made us go After the first set you said "I really need to smoke." Did you really think security would let us back in? It's like you don't think you can make mistakes When will you realize you will never win?

The song and dance is over He looked at the setting sun The weight on his shoulders He couldn't wait to be done This hurdle's just a little boulder And it weighs a ton. He said I guess I'm getting older It's all wrapped up in a bun And with a confident drive It's right out of the blue Never could slip through and said "The world will change long before I do." Now that the time has come man really can't wait to die He stands there, Staring at the paint dry And at the cracks in the walls It used to feel like the Arctic ocean Drowning you but you freeze first And Those dreams, you put them in a casket Like a mountain road versus a hearse And with a confident drive It's right out of the blue It's all shifting the blame Just enough to allow for them to say you're not the same Something always encapsulated him about a quarry pond deep in the thicket, about twelve miles from where he was currently standing. On a terrace looking at the dim luster of the stars in the sky, where an almost full moon provided most of the light. A shroud of clouds passed overhead, and in a rush of adrenaline, he thought to himself "If I truly am completely unsatisfied with the way everything is going, then I know what needs to be done." Ampersand Lake was always an inner obsession. And one that he never felt like mentioning to anyone else, "they wouldn't understand why I find it so interesting." But he decided that if this was it, he'd like to see Ampersand at least once. I passed the old store With the broken sign They've been gone for 10 or more The tank's gone empty drains part of me Takes the last of my sanity And maybe that's how it should be Is that how you imagined it in your head It's so late now you can't hear the warning plea Every single one of them is fucking dead So look out, everyone cuz I got a problem and I don't need nothing I don't need anyone, cuz they're all the reason why I keep on rushin' hold on hold on hold on It's gone I keep it composed It is skin deep Like a volcano about to explode I thought it was such a convolution Either that or severe mental pollution And maybe that's how it should be Is that how you imagined it in your head It's so late now you can't hear the warning plea Every single one of them is fucking dead So look out, everyone cuz I got a problem and I don't need nothing I don't need anyone, cuz they're all the reason why I keep on rushin hold on hold on hold on It's gone It's Eight degrees warmer today It's still below freezing and this feeling won't go away Death is so cold, but I have reconciled I dream of being content, but it's so mild To bad Yes I still go to bed sad and broken The words that I've spoken Aren't the ones in my mind I tried not to waste any time This time I knew I tried Have you ever wished you weren't alive? I am your lack of communication, you can build me up but I am nothing at all I am your lack of a dedication, why hasn't everyone left and abandon your lost cause? I am your broken motivation, yes it's all gone dry in a turn of a head I am your feelings of depressed frustration, I will beat you down and fuck you dead Is fate predetermined? Yet why do people stand tall Or to have your legend live on in a wall And waste all your time and all of your care and to still have it lack Same goes for someone who just doesn't care enough to call back I thought it was keeping me down It was in fact the only thing keeping me round THE LOADING BAY! Let down but I swear to God I tried And if I miss it again they would say "You're a miserable piece of shit You've waited this long in your life to commit What you've collected through the years It's nothing! It's nothing, it's nothing" He stepped out onto a rocky outcrop that peered over the steep cliff and stared down at the icy cold water He looked at the reflection of the bright night sky What was there to lose? What was there to gain? A hint of sunlight gleaned over the frosty ridge He shut his eyes as a frigid gust of wind picked up and lifted his shirt and breathed in the dead Morning air He stiffened his muscles His eyes peeled open as he stared mindlessly at the change yet to come He exhaled sharply as the gentle tears rolled down and froze to his cheek He stepped up on the slippery barrier And gripped onto the struts that jutted up overhead. He said quietly to himself, "I've never had more control." And apprehensively grinned at the closure underneath. He felt warm inside. And then decided this was the only thing left to do. There was nothing else.

I'm going to the real world today It doesn't make a difference anyway. Always running out of room, out of time. The point is - I finally crossed the line What does that mean to you? Am I happy inside? And what does that say to you? Is it all in my mind? There's a lot of truth in lying, so say what you will And part of me has been hiding over the hill It tried to climb up, but it always would stop And now I see it standing up at the top What does that mean to you? Am I happy inside? And what does that say to you? Is it all in my mind? Do ya like the view from above? Is everything clear enough? What does that mean to you? Am I happy inside? And what does that say to you? Is it all in my mind?